"It's Crazy How Life Politely Says, 'No'"

So I've been inspired (or fixated) by blogs lately, and so with that duel inspiration/fixation, I have decided to create something of my own. With no hope that anyone will ever really read this, I trudge on. . .

I graduated this past April from Cascade College with expectations that I would move into a steady job, make my student loan payments, go buy groceries every other week or so, save some cash for a plane ticket to Europe, and live a happy life with my roommates Anna and Amanda. It's crazy how life politely says, "No", and then causes you to re-evaluate.

At first, I didn't really get into the type of job I wanted. So I did my fair share of complaining and whining about the whole thing. I look back now, and while I see that a lot of that was done in jest, there are people who have a lot in life that is far worse than mine. And so I complained and whined with no justification. Then, a few other things happened along the way that put some other things into perspective for me. I was faced with a rather unsettling experience regarding the health of my grandmother and then subsequently lost two other family members in the same month. Then came the big news, the company I worked for was "acquired" and headquarters relocated to St. Louis, Missouri. I automatically ruled out following a job to St. Louis.

While this is a very random and possibly unrelated grouping of events, this was what helped me realize that I am blessed and far more fortunate than some others. I am choosing to look on the bright side. However in the coming months, I know that I am going to hit that massive wall of panic when I realize that I have no employment, benefits or "safe" amount of savings to my name. Hold on and hope. Trust in God. Walk in faith. I keep repeating things like that in my head, hoping to everything that they will some day take effect and influence me to live a righteous and happy life.

It really doesn't matter what I do now I suppose. I know I have a multitude of possibilites, however, it's the problem of opening my eyes to what lies around me. I could muck stalls right now and I would find peace and contentment through it. I have confidence that something will come my way. Timing is everything.

So, yes, it is very odd how life (or maybe it's just all God) politely ruins plans. I have confidence that something better will come though. Something that I am meant to do. Irony I suppose can rein supreme now and again. Although I suppose if everything were the same all the time, plans went according to the plan, and everything was peachy it would all turn out to be the same. No, I'm not interested in that.